Reminiscing....

As I was driving home today, I heard a throw back to my college days - Hypnotize by the Notorious B.I.G.... I took a look at myself in the rear-view mirror and all I could do was laugh. I had a flash back to sitting at my best friend's house, mixing Bath & Body Works lotion with glitter (hey, I was a poor college kid who didn't want to spent the $$ on shimmer lotions - not sure if they even existed then!) to rub all over our exposed midriffs and arms. I also remember putting it along the inner V/tear duct of my eye - now, that may not have been the smartest thing that I have ever done - but, darn it if it didn't look amazing! All the prep work to get ready to go clubbin' and just let our hair down after a tough week of nose-to-the-books classes. My close knit group of friends certainly studied hard (I graduated with a 3.98), but we definitely partied it up on the weekends!!

Anyhow, it amazed me that as I allowed myself to be transported back to such a carefree time of my life to look at where I am today. I honestly would have thought someone was on some serious hallucinogenic substances if they told me that I would be driving a full-size SUV and operating as a full-time SAHM of 2 little ones. I never wanted kids... well, at least they were such a distant thought on the horizon when I was 19 that I never gave them much thought... I just guess I thought I would have a child/children at some point once I was settled in my career and had a lot of selfish me time to go travelling and finding who I am and want to be.

So, when I looked in the rear view mirror and saw a 30something version of myself staring back at me I was just amazing at how much I have changed... but a part of me definitely missed looking forward to Friday and Saturday nights getting all glammed up to go clubbing and dance away all of the stress of the week... just allow myself to be transported to another place by the music - the rush of the adrenaline from hours and hours of dancing on a crowded dance floor, no one really minding that everyone was in each other's personal space... drenched by the end of the evening with sweat...

My plans tonight (Friday, for the record book)... TIVO'ing What Not to Wear, JIC I fall asleep before it's over - it is on in the 9-10 time slot after all :)... wondering if I should nominate myelf for a mommy make-over of sorts. After all, there HAS to be more to life than Juicy sweatsuits and Gap issued yoga pants...